Patience is Tough

I can't seem to quite understand what is going on inside my head. I want so many things and I just don't know how to do it all with out something falling through the cracks. But I want it all so badly I can't imagine letting anything go. My education is priority, but I fear the perfection that I seek I can't achieve. I don't want to disappoint anyone. How do you juggle everything? I guess you can't. Not with out someones help. I know I said in my first post I am a person that pretty much only cares about others, and that is true. But I also have a incredible hard time trusting anyone. My life was in such shambles for such a long time that the idea of instability scares me so badly. I watched the show "Once Upon a Time" today. That and laundry and the doctors office is all I have really done all day. I seem to loss myself in entertainment. I somehow seem to take on the emotion of the characters. I am really quite ridiculous. My friends make fun of me for it. They think it is funny that I get so enveloped in a story. I don't think it is that funny anymore. I hope that one day I will be strong enough to hold on to who I see I am. Right now everything feels so up in the air. Yes that might be because Easter is tomorrow and I'm still getting over pneumonia. I just hope everything works out. The one thing I noticed in Once Upon a Time today is that we cause so many of our own problems. If we would just let things be it would all work itself out, but we are too impatient. I pray that over me and you tonight. That we would learn the value and strength of patience and trust. Good night. time for this sick girl to get some sleep.